This is what I want to feel like!!!

This is what I want to feel like!!!
How I feel when I'm over her knee!!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2021

Monday, June 24, 2019

The next step

Well, here it is.........I think I’m finally ready to take the next step in our relationship. The next step is full on disciplinary spankings! Of course, I’m scared..........wouldn’t be human if I wasn’t. I will get back to you when I have had my first punishment spanking.

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

Happy New Year

I think I am going to try to take my spankings to the next level by submitting to REAL punishment spankings. My present spankings hurt but in no way are they real punishment. Wish me luck.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

Got my ass blistered last night!!!

It's been awhile since I posted. Sorry guys. Not much has been happening, until last night that is. Last night all of the stories I have been sending her came to the forefront in her spanking. She told me to wash the dishes and I told her to 'bite my knob', I was kidding, of course, but she wasn't when she dragged me down the hall to our room and gave me a short, thank god, but very painful spanking. I had not been spanked for awhile so I was beside myself with pain. She used her 'Yes Ma'am' paddle and her hand. Between bursts of the paddle she would spank me by hand.........her hand seemed like a paddle last night. All I can say was that when she was through I did the damn

Saturday, July 30, 2016

Wishy washy?

I am always talking my way out of a spanking. I told my wife yesterday that next time I try to talk my way out, instead of going over her knee right away, that she should beat my ass purple, put me in the corner, and then take me out and give me the original spanking she was going to give me to begin with. I said that I bet after she gave me a couple of those that I would never try the talk again. I said that she should stop being so wishy washy. I think maybe I should just stop giving her ideas.

Friday, October 9, 2015

An email I just sent my wife.............

It is almost like we have ESP for each others thoughts and feelings. I have been laying here every night trying to think of the right way to tell you that I need you to be stricter with me. To spank me right away and not be so wishy washy. When you decide to spank: SPANK!!! Also, I think that you should try to get into my head when you spank. That is the only way that we will ever achieve tears. Just pull me down the hall by my ear, or whatever, all of the time telling me how you're going to beat my ass so bad that I won't sit for a week. Be strict, don't accept any excuses, just SPANK!!! If you find that I haven't done my chores, and I'm watching t.v., just come in yelling "David Edward K you are going to get your ass beat. What did I tell you would happen if you neglected your chores? Since you obviously didn't believe me I guess I'm going to have to blister your bottom right now!!!" Then do it!!!!!!!!!! Sometimes I leave my chores undone just to see what you'll do. Usually you will just do them yourself rather than spanking me, like you should, for ignoring your orders. The other day the recycling was overflowing and you never said a thing. My question is: Are you a sissy girl who gets pushed around?

(I think that I may really regret this one!!!)

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Hard to believe

It's hard to believe that my depression has kept me from posting since May. A lot has been happening on the spanking front since May. My wife is becoming a much better, harder and more capable spanker! It seems like the more that I send her emails of what I love to read about spanking the more proficient she becomes. Here is the last one that I sent her from a site I found on the net:
"When I spank and the hubby finally start to "Bawl" I spank well past that point, yes it's a normal reaction it doesn't mean ok it's time to stop, it tells me as does the squirming and kicking that my message is being received.
One time I took him over my knee and spanked him harder and longer than I ever have with the brush, he was wiggling and kicking up a storm actually bucking at times, screaming! When I finally stopped his bottom was crimson with some purple marks from the brush. He was sore for two days.
I still try to administer a butt warming that will be felt for days and remembered forever. And during the  spanking I am totally immune to pleas, begging, wiggling, kicking, crying and everything else outside of producing an incredibly sore backside. I also have no qualms about spanking in front of anyone present and having the my hubby receive his punishment naked as a jay bird. Of course, if you are going to have witnesses you should make sure that they will have no problem with what they are about to see. I actually started telling my trusted friends that I spanked my husband. If they didn't seem aghast I asked if they would mind witnessing one of his spankings to increase his humiliation. I have found a couple who are game and they have seen me literally blister my hubby's ass. You would not believe the effect when my husband starts bawling in front of them. Sometimes after a severe spanking my husband's ass is sore for several days afterwards. If just a little more severe brush spanking is needed I just use a series of smacks in the same spot before moving on. That greatly increases the sting and gets the point across.My only way of making a spanking worse is to spank for far longer.
There are times when I do not just want sincere crying before I am finished: I also wanted a his bottom to be purple over my lap."

I sent that one a couple of days ago and she reciprocated by giving me the longest, most severe, spanking to date. When I am getting my ass roasted I think to myself "what the fuck is wrong with me?" I am screaming my lungs out, full force, into a pillow as she seems perfectly content to go on and on and on. Sometimes she actually starts laughing because I am screaming so loud, and kicking so much; she finds it amusing.
I have got to tell you that every time that she cranks it up a notch I get a little more wary when she says it's time for me to be spanked. So far these are just maintenance spankings. I am very careful not to earn a punishment spanking!
Yes, I can honestly say that my spankings are becoming more severe every time! But, what do I expect when she is only doing what I asked?????

Saturday, May 16, 2015

New spanking bench...............

I just posted a picture of the spanking bench my wife and I have coming. I told her that when we get it she should secure me to it and beat my ass until I sob like a baby! Of course, it was supposed to be here today but it did not arrive. I am glad because I am trying to backtrack from my earlier bravado with her. It all sounded good until I really thought about what I had asked for. The bench comes with nine restraints: two for each arm, two for each leg and one for around the waist. In other words no escape! I am really going to have to man up because I am extremely claustrophobic and this system will hold me completely immobile. I will probably forget about that once the pain other words this is a no win

Monday, March 16, 2015

I gotta say............

Although I like my wife having the authority to spank me.................I am having a real problem with the submissive part. I am really conflicted about this. I like her having some control but I am having problems letting her have all of it.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Happy to report..............

After 53 years of life I have the strict disciplinarian I have always wanted. When we started out in this relationship I was the spanker, then we drifted into switch territory for awhile. I have always dreamed of being a very disciplined husband, and it took awhile but my wife is finally in the "swing" of things as it At first we switched a lot. Then I sent her every article, story, and video I could find on the subject of Domestic Discipline...female style! Although she read, and looked at everything I sent her, it took her some time to arrive at what I was looking for. I would send her another story after she had spanked me for a transgression....the story would lean more towards what I was looking for. Now I feel like I might be creating a monster as she is stricter and spanking me harder. She also does not let me get away with the things that she used to! Life is good!!!

Saturday, December 27, 2014

The twelve days of ass blistering............

My wife is off for Christmas vacation and has stated that she is going to spank me everyday. So far, we're five days in and the spankings have been harder, and longer, than usual. I have a feeling that she has been reading all of the stories, and letters, I have been sending her. The stories always include very, very severe ass blisterings that result in the man blubbering over his wife's knee. All I am sure of is that somehow she decided to become a more advanced spanked. She added a few tricks to her arsenal: Longer, harder and lots of swats to the exact same spot.............all of these combined have added a new level of pain to my spankings, which is good and Maybe she is trying to get me to the point of tears that I have always dreamed of. Maybe she is getting ready to move on to giving me true punishment spankings. Only time will tell. I will tell you that I worship my wife even more than I did before (which I didn't think was possible) and my butt is getting more tender by the day. I have not recovered from last nights spanking and it's almost time for another one. Each spanking is a new form of agony as my butt is still raw from the night before. Even though each spanking seems worse than the night before, I would still not want it any other way. This is the life I chose; this is the life I want!!!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

The spankings have started anew!

My wife is off on Christmas break and she informed me that she is going to spank me every day that she is off. I have had three spankings so far, and they have all been harder than usual. I still have twelve more days to go. Ouuuuuch!!! I am so lucky.............I

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Sorry about the lack of posts

But, to tell the truth, there has not been a whole lot to post about. Since boot camp the spankings have been very few, and very far between. If you ask me what happened I would have to say that I don't have the slightest idea. Maybe it is too much. Although she has not said that it is. When she has me over her knee she tells me that she is going to get back in the habit of tanning my hide twice a week..........then, three weeks later, she says the same thing. I will keep you updated.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Day 2

It was awesome!!! The spankings were harder to take because my pain tolerance was down and my bottom was a little tenderized from the yesterday. That being said I felt that our marriage improved 600% because of boot camp...........and, to tell the truth, I never thought it could be better than how awesome it already was!!! I love my wife more than I did before we started it, another thing that I did not think was possible!!! Not only do we have a better understanding of our roles in this lifestyle, but because of the homework assignments, we also have a better understanding of each other. I speak for both of us when I say that so far this is the best thing we have done for our marriage. Below I am posting a link on where you can get the book on how to do this. This is a commitment that is so worth it!

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

The first day of boot camp:

Okay......update: We got through the first day and let me tell you it was an amazing experience! I had an amazing pain tolerance so the spankings were not bad, but they were not the important part, as I thought they would be. The great part was the homework assignments that we had to do as a couple. The program calls for us to do four assignments each day. I did not think that it was possible to love my wife more than I did: I was wrong! After every assignment we completed I could literally feel the love get deeper between us....and this statement goes for both of us. I have a glow that I have not felt in awhile; we both now have a stronger love!!! I will update on the second day tomorrow.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014


My wife and I have scheduled our boot camp for August 12th & 13th. Hopefully for me and my bottom, I will not regret it. I will let you know how it goes...........maybe with updates as it happens, but that will be up to my wife.
Wish us luck!!!

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Bring it on home...............

Ordered, and read, a book about going through a Domestic Discipline boot camp with your spouse. The camp, that is only for the two people involved, is to help both partners understand their roles. For my wife it is to help her to maintain her rules by not letting any mistake go unpunished. For me it is to help me not to push the boundaries my wife sets, and to respect her word as law. It helps my wife to not accept any backtalk, or shirking of responsibilities, without punishing me (spanking, corner time, mouth soaping, writing lines, grounding, etc.) We are going to try this camp when we have time. It is a two day experience that consists of four spankings a day, two of which are severe. There are also many exercises for us to complete. I will let you know the results after we complete the camp.

Here is the link to get the book: The Domestic Discipline Boot Camp Basics | Learning Domestic ...

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

It happened tonight.......................

My first punishment spanking. One minute of spanking as hard as she could, a minute rest for her arm, and then another minute of spanking. Tonight was one of those nights that I had an excellent pain it really wasn't that bad for me. I kind of wish it had been more unbearable, but it was the first one so it was awesome!!! If my pain tolerance had been low I would have gone through the wall. She needs to build up her arm and I need to make my butt more tender. Who else, but an absolute Goddess would care to make all of my dreams come true?  I love and worship my wife with all of my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

We shall see................

I told my wife that I would like to experience a small punishment spanking. It was recommended by my "Aunt" that she give me two minutes of non-stop spanking. We have not done it yet. I found out that my Ipad has a timer..........I set it for two minutes because I was curious. Holy shit! Two minutes seems like a loooooong, unbearable time!!! Time seemed to tick by so slowly when I imagine what I will be going though when I set it for real.

I will let you know my feelings after it happens.............if I can still sit.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Taking a new direction.............

My wife/mommy and I are entering into an Female Led Relationship (FLR) at my request. This is something I have wanted to try. I dream of being controlled, frequently spanked severely, and made to kneel at her feet. We are getting a lot of info from this site:

Thursday, March 13, 2014

It's exciting.............

My wife is starting to enjoy her more dominant role now, she is constantly using her ability to spank me as a threat to keep me in line. She has also employed some, what I like to call, "right now" spankings. That spanking is where she feels I am being a little to much of a smartass and makes me drop my pants wherever I am at, in the house, and smacks my rear with whatever is handy. We have a paddle hanging on the wall in the kitchen, which I posted a picture of,
and a Jokari on top of the refrigerator............she has me drop my pants, grab the sink, and then she spanks me. The spanking is only a few swats, but it gets my attention. I love my wife!!! God help me if she becomes really strict!!!

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

My wife gave me a maintenance spanking tonight, it was the first in three weeks. I was really sick, for two weeks, and then my depression kicked me to the curb for one. I just wanted to post this small update to express that I am still alive............and I still think my wife ROCKS!!!

Sunday, January 19, 2014

My wife has been being fairly consistent...........

She has been spanking me almost every other day. She misses sometimes, but she makes up for it. We are going to take it to the next level as I have given her my consent to give me full on, thirty second, punishment spankings when I commit small infractions. That way we can at least get started down the road to a true punishment spanking.
I will let you know how it goes.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Yay me...................maybe

My wife has been giving me maintenance spanking every other day for she informs me that she is going to take all of the control. No more topping from the bottom for me. No more telling her how I like to be, or want to be spanked. I asked her if she thought she would be okay with having all of the control....she said she was okay with it if I trusted her. I told her that I trust her completely! There has been no one in my life that I have ever trusted more.
We keep evolving, and growing. I love it!!! Just goes to show that dreams do come true.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

This is a letter that I just gave my wife:

Cause for severe spanking:

1. Yelling at you
2. Treating you with disrespect
3. Not doing my chores well, or on time
4. Just because you feel like it (i.e. crabby, pissed off, had a bad day.)
5. Helping me with my depression
6. Acting like a spoiled brat (yelling, being a dick to people, driving like a moron.)
7. Not eating right (not losing weight.)

I am sure that you can come up with plenty of other reasons to beat my ass purple.............use them!!!
I have been dreaming, fantasizing, craving, and longing for this in my life for so long. Be my very strict wife and I will love you more than ever!!! Don't let me get away with anything. Do not let me talk, or beg my way out of any severe blistering that I have earned myself!!! I need this desperately in my life.........I am just so afraid of the pain associated with the blistering. But, I do need this in my life.
I need you to understand one thing that is an absolute fact: I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU IF YOU CANNOT DO THIS FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will understand if you feel that this is too much, as it is a little strange, actually, a fucking lot strange!!! I mean after all, what kind of man asks his wife to treat him like a child, keep tabs on his behavior, and beat his ass purple when he is bad? (except for me that I need the strict guidance, frequently being reduced to a bawling little boy, and the loved feeling of being a disciplined husband.
I have fantasies about this lifestyle everyday.....EVERYDAY!!!!!! No days goes by that I don't crave this in my life........not one. I was born this way and it will never change. I imagine that it's the same as being born gay..........getting my ass blistered fulfills me.

The fear of it has always kept me from fulfilling my dreams; always kept me unfulfilled. Please help me! I imagine that after one full fledged ass beating that I will try to back out of this........please do not let me!!! Spank me until I beg, plead, and sob, and than go a bit further.

(She said the she was perfectly alright with doing this, so now I had better watch my step.)