The spanking happened...........

Well, I got my spanking at about 11 last night.......it was a real blistering, with lots of rubbing, and multiple instruments. She could not get me to tears, but it was a good blistering nontheless. I will try to upload it onto spankingtube. I was disappointed that I did not get to tears, but from what I've read, there are not a lot of men who can actually obtain tears........I must be one of them. I still have not posted the video; I will let you know when I do. The funny thing is that the picture I posted does not show the damage to my bottom the way the video does. All I know is that here it is, two days later, and my bottom is still swollen. I did find that there were times, during the spanking, where I could remove myself from the pain for a few seconds............I could sort of block it out.

Well, the time has come.................

The time to put up or shut up; the time when the rubber meets the road........and the hairbrush blisters my ass!!! The woman that my wife and I met this summer is coming into town on business, and to spank me to tears. Am I scared? Hell yes!!! Even though this is what I have been craving, fantasizing, and wishing for my whole life, I am still scared to death.I want to get out of it in the worst way. But, if I get out of it I will always wish for it and never know. As we all know: fantasies are sometimes only that.......and they hardly ever turn out like we dreamed. On the other hand, fantasies sometimes turn out better than we possibly could have hoped for........leaving us craving, as Billy Idol says, more, more, more.
I told this woman, who is now a friend, that I want her to be my very strict step Mommy. I want her to make me feel like a bad little boy, be very verbal while she mercilessly beats my ass. I have told her that I want to be reduced to a sobbing, snot slinging little boy. Realistically I know that my mind will change on the first contact of the hairbrush to my unprotected, bare, bottom! I am going to be restrained in such a way that I will have no choice but to take it...........much like a young boy over his Mommies knee, which is how I want to feel. My wife will be in the room as I receive my blistering, which is excellent because I have always had the fantasy of getting my ass beat in front of witnesses. Am I unlucky or blessed? Only time will tell. Well, to be honest....I am blessed, although my bare bottom is not..........lol.
The spanking is to occur on Sunday 11/25/2012...............I am scared to death!!!

How many men here are like me?

 The first thing you think........when you see a beautiful woman, or any woman for that matter, is "I wonder if she gives a severe spanking" or "I'd like to go over her lap?" My thoughts always run that way.............they have since I was a child. I used to lay in my bed at night and picture myself being spanked by either one of my teachers or an actress I had seen on television that night. The spankings I daydreamed about were always the kind that left me a sobbing, begging, mess. So come on....be honest: are you like me?

Anniversary!!!

I have been married to the most beautiful woman in the world for one year on Monday!!! Awesome!!!

I may have to take a break for awhile...........

My wife informed me today that she thought we should find another person to be my disciplinarian. I guess she feels that this lifestyle is affecting our Dom/sub dynamic. I am the Dom, but I thought we could work this out so it was advantageous to both of us. It turns out that it does disturb our dynamic. I will let you know what the future holds.

Okay, it has been a couple of days now.............my wife says she will still continue to give me maintenance spankings, but she thinks I would be better off if another woman gave me the serious discipline spankings.

Today my wife and I met with a wonderful lady who said she would help my wife learn how to spank me to tears. It was great to meet another person in the lifestyle. Both my wife and I instantly felt like we had made a new friend.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!

Just passed 100,000 hits on my blog!!! I really hope that you guy's continue to enjoy it!!!

Maintenance spankings........

My wife has been giving me maintenance spankings every other day since I have been off work. The spankings are not particularly severe.....just enough so that I know I have been spanked. Also, just enough so I get the release of endorphins I need to keep me from sinking too far into the depression that I am prone to. We have to really be on guard against my depression at this time because I am off of work for at least three months and the idle time makes it easy for me to slip into the mire.
My wife is the greatest woman on earth, and my Goddess!!!

A short spanking story I wrote today............

Learning to be disciplined

I stood naked in front of the seated lady who was going to teach my wife how to give a proper punishment spanking. I had been spanked before, but never to the extent of real discipline…….this was my deepest dream, but also my deepest fear. I trembled with the anticipation and fear.

The woman looked up at me and said, “Now David let me be perfectly honest here so that there is no misunderstanding. In a discipline spanking you are being punished, severely punished!!! There is no warm up, there is no break, you will be in agony from start to finish. The agony is constant and unbearable, and it goes on for a very long time. If you go over my knee, agony will be your only reward…..and, hopefully, tears. You have expressed the desire to be a disciplined husband; you have expressed the dream to have a very strict wife. If you choose to willingly go over my knee today your life will change forever. Your relationship will change forever. This will be only one of the many more, severely painful, spankings you will receive over the course of you marriage. I have recommended that your wife, and soul mate, blister your ass in the way I’m about to demonstrate, twice a week for the first year.  You will spend many days standing, or kneeling, in the corner with a face covered in tears and snot. Your wife may spank you like this whenever you have broken an agreed upon rule, whenever you have gotten too big for your britches, or whenever she sees fit!!! Make your choice now,  just remember that from here on out it will be a long and painful ride…….but, it is a ride in which you will know a feeling of being loved and cared for that you have never known. Choose!!!

Fear gripped me as I laid myself over her lap and took the step I had always dreamed of………………..

I will keep you informed as our new dynamic emerges.

This is very scary; I view this with excitement and trepidation. I am watching my wife interact, on various sites, with women who already practice this lifestyle with their husbands. I watch as my wife is learning what it takes to properly discipline a bad little boy/Husband. We are planning on meeting one couple where the wife has said she will show, on my bottom, how to give a proper discipline spanking.........I can't wait!!! Oh wait, I mean I am scared to death, because I really am.
I, like many of you, have spent countless hours reading what seemed to be outrageous, fantasy laden, posts about men getting their asses beat. I wondered if such a lifestyle wasn't just a fantasy.
 I searched in vain for such a woman to live that lifestyle with. Gentlemen I have found that woman!!! Not only did God grace me with a woman who would spank me, he graced me with my soulmate: a woman who is a Goddess in my eyes in everyway!!!!!!!!!!!

7/22/2012: My awesome wife just gave me a maintenance spanking............all I have to say is I am a total wimp!!! I hope I never earn a real punishment spanking because I will die!!!......lol. Of course, as all spanked husbands know, eventually I will receive one. Spanked husbands have also assured me that I will not die. I may wish I was dead............rofl.

On our way...............

I have asked my wife to spank me more, and also to give me my first punishment spanking soon, whether I need it or not. Don't get me wrong, I am not looking forward with great joy to my first punishment spanking, however I know I need, crave, and want it with all of my heart and soul. I am off of work for awhile, and she has the summer off, so we can get more of a chance to shape this into whatever we want to make it. I would love to make it where I am a frequently spanked, well disciplined husband. I would love to be made to bawl like a baby, over her knee, by the end of the summer!!! In the end it is all up to her..........the way it should be!!!

My wife has started giving me two maintenance spankings a week. The spankings are not particularly harsh, although I will admit they hurt. They are just enough to remind me who the Mommy is.

How do you feel about this saying?

"A "REAL SPANKING" only truly begins, well after the recipient is desperate for it to end..."

   Do you agree, or disagree, with the premise behind it?              

Hernia surgery.............

I just had it yesterday. I am so swollen and multicolored it is ridiculous! Has anybody had experience with this kind of surgery?

I finally have a date to go back to work: next Wednesday. All in all it will have been three weeks. At least the weather has been awesome everyday, even though I've only been able to sit outside and read.

4/28/2012 I got spanked today. I broke one of our rules last night, I made fun of her in front of people. When we were in the car she told me I was going to get spanked when we got home. I managed to talk my way out of it, but as I thought about it today I came to the conclusion that I should not be able to talk my way out of it. I sent her a text when she was out that stated that I felt kind of let down because I was able to talk her out of blistering my ass. I told her that when she stated that I needed discipline she should be strict and unmoving. I said that I felt she should always follow up on her threat to spank!
   She read my texts and when she got home today she made me very sorry that I had sent them. Very sorry! She then stated that she was going to start giving me maintenance spankings twice a week from now on, on top of any discipline spankings that I may earn. I will keep you informed.

I asked my wife to spank me a lot this weekend.

4/20/2012: She obliged me by starting right when I got home from work: quite a barn burner. I had a swollen ass when she was done. Maybe I better re-think what I asked for?.....................NAH!!!

4/22/2012: Well, the weekend is over and I only got one spanking........... ;-(  As so often happens we get busy with our lives and forget, which sucks, but it is what it is.

Now Banjo is gone!!!

Banjo's blog is no more...............I guess mine is not longed for this world, either!!! Hail almighty censorship!!! Zeig Heil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A clarification.................

Although, there are several pictures of young boys getting their bottom blistered on my site, I do not condone child abuse. The pictures represent how I would love to feel again: bottom bared, over a knee, helpless, crying, begging, but knowing I deserved it. I would love to be so helpless that I could do nothing but take the spanking my wife chose to deal out; I would love to feel like a naughty twelve year old boy over Mommies knee. I would love to be able to sob my heart out as Mommy blistered me raw.

Sorry about the lack of posts........................

I am being yanked around by my job. My bosses pulled me into the office on Friday and told me that, in the near future, I would no longer be supervisor............they had no plan about when this would happen. I was devastated! So, everyday this week I have done my regular job and one of the bosses told me he really didn't think my job would be all that different. WHAT THE FUCK!!! These people are really running the company??? They have no concrete plan so they figure they should kick me in the balls really hard and see where it goes. The president of the company actually said to me in the meeting "we probably left you in the positition a few years too long...shame on us." Pretty much what that translates to is "you really sucked at your job but we let you do it anyway!" Today I told my boss that I needed to know what my new job was as soon as possible so that I could start figuring out what I needed to do about working there. I told him I had been there twenty seven years and I deserved a little better than this.

One of my favorite spanking blogs is gone!!!

I just tried to go onto Ma'am yes Ma'am spanking blog and was devastated to find it had disappeared!!! It was on of the best Female/Male spanking blogs on the net!!! Lots of good advice, and sharing, was lost. This sucks!!!

This is the first day that I haven't been spanked in a week...............

I miss it............. :-( ...............it made me really happy, and mellow, when she was done. I think I miss them bacause they weren't true punishment spankings.............don't get me wrong: they hurt like a bitch, but I do not think they were the unbearable kind that a true punishment spanking is. Even though I miss the spankings I know that I have to take a break so that I don't get "leather butt." Plus I want the spankings to be effective when she does give them to me to correct my behavior.

Was just spanked for throwing a tantrum today..............

1/15/2012: We were out shopping and I became crabby at the wife and acted like a spoiled brat. The spanking was not a real blistering, it did make a point, though. Whenever she would take a break to scold me I found myself laughing: not at her, maybe I was jusy happy to be over her knee. Maybe she should have blistered the smile right off of my face, I don't know. When she was done spanking me she told me she was going to spank me everyday this week. "Ouch" is all I have to say.
1/16/2012: I got the second spanking today. It was a little harder, and longer, but not unbearable. But, she did come up with a new twist........she would stop and make me unclench my ass and then go on paddling me. It was hard not to clench but I managed to stay unclenched a lot of the time because that is what she told me to do. I love her more everyday!!! P.S. If you read the second comment, it's from my wife!!!
1/17/2012: I got the third spanking today....it was a scorcher!!! I have posted a picture of the two instruments she has used to spank my ass so far. She used the "Holy Terror" on my ass, and thighs, tonight while I screamed into a pillow. The two things I learned tonight were...One: I do not need restraints as no matter how hard she spanked me I did not try to interfere.......Two: I will probably never cry, even though I want to. I want to cry with all of my heart, but I was nowhere close to tears. I have also posted a picture of the most gorgeous woman on the planet: my wife!!! With her face blacked out, of course.
1/17/2012: Part two.......My ass is pretty damned tender! I don't know if I can stand another spanking tomorrow, but I'm not sure she really cares about that (as well she shouldn't).........lol. I guess I earned what I'm going to get.
1/18/2012: I got the fourth spanking today, it wasn't as severe as the others because I was really helpful around the house today (I may be dumb, but I'm not stupid.....lol.) I also taped the spanking today so we could watch it after. She marveled at how much bigger I was than her. I told her that is why she shouldn't feel the least bit sorry for me when I am over her knee, because I go over it willingly. I am not crazy about the pain, but I do need, and crave, this discipline in my life. I scream bloody murder into a pillow when she is blistering my ass, but when she is done I feel at peace.....and more in love with her than I have ever been!!!
She did tell me that even though she went easy on me tonight I should not expect the same tomorrow!!! My ass is so sore..........How am I going to make it through two more days?
1/19/2012: Well I found that I could make it through one more day of spanking: only one more to go. It wasn't too bad tonight. The bathbrush she was using broke early on so she had to stop and get up to get a new instrument to beat my ass with..........I think that took a little wind out of her sails. Thank God!!! I posted a picture of my ass from tonight's beating. Of course, to be honest, that is the culmination of the week so far.
1/20/2012: Just got the last spanking of the week....it wasn't real bad despite what she had said earlier in the week. In fact it was one of the milder ones. We did agree that these were negotiated punishment spankings that she gave me this week that in no way represent what a real punishment spanking will be like. In a real punishment spanking  there will be no warm up with her hand, and that is as it should be. A real punishment spanking will be quite an ordeal for me to get through, but after this week I realize that I will live through it, so I will place myself over her knee willingly and take my punishment.
My wife is the most awesome woman in the world!!! She is becoming an awesome spanker!!!

A little, or a lot, about me.............

I am a fifty year old, very happily married man. I am very lucky to have married my soulmate!!! I was married to a woman before her, a woman who said she shared my kinks. She said this before we were married, but six months after we were married she said she no longer wished to participate in my fetishes. To say I was devastated would be the biggest understatement in the world! For the next thirteen years I lived a miserable life whereas the only outlet for my desires was the Internet. When I first met my ex I was the spanker, even though I had dreamed about getting my ass blistered by strict women: teachers, neighbors, and actresses, since I was a small boy. I used to lie awake in bed at night and daydream about being spanked to tears everynight. Everynight!
I spent a large part of my life denying myself my life's desires. I was no longer allowed to spank my wife, nor could I get her to take the reins and spank me. I allowed myself to live in hell for a very long time because of my fear of living alone. That all ended when I met the angel that is my wife now!
My wife and I are compatible on every level: we laugh constantly, we enjoy spending our time together, and we both love spanking. Although, I must admit that as of now I have spanked her more than she has spanked me. But she knows of my desires, and she is more than willing to help me fulfill them! I have never hidden any part of my fantasies from her; I have expressed my deepest desire to have her be my spanking Wife/Mommy. If I can't be honest with her, who can I be honest with?
I started this blog to sort of document our journey through this spanking labyrinth. I started it because, if you're like me, you read all of the blogs, looked at all of the pictures, joined all of the groups, but weren't sure if it all wasn't made up. You weren't sure that this wasn't all some male jack off fantasy that wasn't real. When you read the letters on "The disciplinary wives club" or read a treatise by Elise Sutton, you could never be sure if somebody was actually living the words they wrote. That is the reason I started this blog......I wanted to tell you that there are people, out here, who are really living out this lifestyle.
Of course, life is life..........we don't spend every single minute concentrating on spanking.........well, maybe she doesn't....lol. We are just trying to feel our way along the path of the Female/male spanking relationship. I know one thing for sure, and that is: there is no woman's knee I would rather go over than hers!!!!!!!!
If you would like to chat further you can email me at: okcats2@hotmail.com    Or stay tuned to my blog and we'll learn together.

I asked my Wife/Mommy to spank me a lot this weekend..............

I asked her to give me cornertime, scold and spank me, and basically treat me like a naughty boy. She seems up for the suggestion! I will keep you informed.

I received a maintenance spanking tonight...............

The spanking was not very long, or hard, but it did put me in a little better head space. I was a touch bit crabby tonight, and it was my maintenance spanking night, so it all worked out. My wife decided that Thursday night would be my regular spanking night: nothing to serious, unless I deserved it. I love my wife!!!