This is what I want to feel like!!!

This is what I want to feel like!!!
How I feel when I'm over her knee!!!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

It's exciting.............

My wife is starting to enjoy her more dominant role now, she is constantly using her ability to spank me as a threat to keep me in line. She has also employed some, what I like to call, "right now" spankings. That spanking is where she feels I am being a little to much of a smartass and makes me drop my pants wherever I am at, in the house, and smacks my rear with whatever is handy. We have a paddle hanging on the wall in the kitchen, which I posted a picture of,
and a Jokari on top of the refrigerator............she has me drop my pants, grab the sink, and then she spanks me. The spanking is only a few swats, but it gets my attention. I love my wife!!! God help me if she becomes really strict!!!

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

My wife gave me a maintenance spanking tonight, it was the first in three weeks. I was really sick, for two weeks, and then my depression kicked me to the curb for one. I just wanted to post this small update to express that I am still alive............and I still think my wife ROCKS!!!

Sunday, January 19, 2014

My wife has been being fairly consistent...........

She has been spanking me almost every other day. She misses sometimes, but she makes up for it. We are going to take it to the next level as I have given her my consent to give me full on, thirty second, punishment spankings when I commit small infractions. That way we can at least get started down the road to a true punishment spanking.
I will let you know how it goes.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Yay me...................maybe

My wife has been giving me maintenance spanking every other day for awhile....now she informs me that she is going to take all of the control. No more topping from the bottom for me. No more telling her how I like to be, or want to be spanked. I asked her if she thought she would be okay with having all of the control....she said she was okay with it if I trusted her. I told her that I trust her completely! There has been no one in my life that I have ever trusted more.
We keep evolving, and growing. I love it!!! Just goes to show that dreams do come true.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

This is a letter that I just gave my wife:

Cause for severe spanking:

1. Yelling at you
2. Treating you with disrespect
3. Not doing my chores well, or on time
4. Just because you feel like it (i.e. crabby, pissed off, had a bad day.)
5. Helping me with my depression
6. Acting like a spoiled brat (yelling, being a dick to people, driving like a moron.)
7. Not eating right (not losing weight.)

I am sure that you can come up with plenty of other reasons to beat my ass purple.............use them!!!
I have been dreaming, fantasizing, craving, and longing for this in my life for so long. Be my very strict wife and I will love you more than ever!!! Don't let me get away with anything. Do not let me talk, or beg my way out of any severe blistering that I have earned myself!!! I need this desperately in my life.........I am just so afraid of the pain associated with the blistering. But, I do need this in my life.
I need you to understand one thing that is an absolute fact: I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU IF YOU CANNOT DO THIS FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will understand if you feel that this is too much, as it is a little strange, actually, a fucking lot strange!!! I mean after all, what kind of man asks his wife to treat him like a child, keep tabs on his behavior, and beat his ass purple when he is bad? (except for me that is.....lol) I need the strict guidance, frequently being reduced to a bawling little boy, and the loved feeling of being a disciplined husband.
I have fantasies about this lifestyle everyday.....EVERYDAY!!!!!! No days goes by that I don't crave this in my life........not one. I was born this way and it will never change. I imagine that it's the same as being born gay..........getting my ass blistered fulfills me.

The fear of it has always kept me from fulfilling my dreams; always kept me unfulfilled. Please help me! I imagine that after one full fledged ass beating that I will try to back out of this........please do not let me!!! Spank me until I beg, plead, and sob, and than go a bit further.



(She said the she was perfectly alright with doing this, so now I had better watch my step.)

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Well, it happened!!!

My "Aunt" came to town today. She, and my wife, went to town on me. I went over both of their knees at one time; they beat my ass together. I was given two stays in the corner: one after the first round of spanking, and one after the second round. The third round was where my Aunty took over the spanking and my Mommy/wife held my legs down. They tried their best to get me to cry, but no dice. I can tell you one thing............it was not because they went easy on me. By the time they were done spanking me my ass was three times it's normal size it was so swollen! They beat my ass for probably two hours and I hardly marked at all. Let me tell you that it did hurt!!!!!!!!! We videotaped the whole thing and I will post it when I get a copy. I know that my Aunty is going to post it on spankingtube when she has it, too.
I am so grateful to my wife for making all of my dreams come true!!! I remember thinking that everyone that wrote a post about this lifestyle happening in their life was full of shit. But now I get my ass beat at least twice a week......and I could not be happier. What did I do in my life to deserve everyone of my fantasies to come true? I really don't know, but I do know when I have been blessed. Thank you my Wife, My Goddess, and my Aunty!!!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Nervous as hell........

My wife, and my stepmom........(who now wants to be known as my aunt) are going to take turns literally roasting my bottom on Saturday. I will be over the knee for some of it; I will be secured on a spanking bench for some of it. I am nervous as fuck because I have been saying that I want this to be a real punishment spanking, with me crying real tears. Now, I am not so hot for this idea. Fear has started to worm it's way into my guts now!!! I will let you guys know what happens.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Progress, not perfection.............

My wife has been giving me maintenance spankings once, or twice, a week now. However, I have avoided a punishment spanking by being good......meaning doing the least I can do without getting my ass beat. I want, crave, and have dreamed my whole life, to be severely spanked by a strict woman. My wife has not had a chance to do this because I am afraid of the pain. My dream is to be made into a frequently spanked, bawling, husband. I spend too much time topping from the bottom for her to ever achieve full rein of my discipline. However, I decided to change all of that and turn my life, and discipline, totally over to her. I got her a book to read on disciplining husbands called "How have your wife use Domestic Discipline on you or just spank you hard." by David Xzenre. She has read about a third of it and so far she likes it. She has not gotten to the part in the book where it describes how a discipline spanking should be given..........I may never sit again!!!
The whole point of this post is to say that I have finally found the woman who can give, and is willing to give me, the punishment I crave...............IT'S ABOUT TIME I LET HER DO IT!!! ;-)

Monday, July 29, 2013

The day draws closer...........

The day when my stepmother, who i have been bratting for months, comes to visit. i am going to get my ass blistered badly......i know that i promised to upload a video of the last time she was here, but i am not quite savvy enough to do so. so we are both going to do it. My stepmother and myself will upload the video of my spanking. Hopefully my Mommy will also blister my ass......i have been told that this beating will be spread out over several hours so hopefully i will cry!!! he is coming into town on August 16th. i don't know the exact day of my blistering. i definatly want to post this so that you know that i am for real.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

AWESOME!!!

I just ordered the paddles I have always wanted!!! I cannot wait to have them used on my unprotected ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will post a picture of the paddles.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

A challenging situation........................

My mother is going to be staying with us for ten days, starting Monday. My wife gives me two maintenance spankings a week...................we will have to figure out when to do them. I said I'm going to be a brat since I know she won't give me a punishment spanking while my mother is here. She told me that she would not hesitate to drag me into our room and beat my ass while my mother was in the house. Hmmmmmm.......I wonder if I dare find out if she's really serious?

Sunday, May 26, 2013

This is the first time...............

That I have gotten spanked twice in one day. I got my maintenance spanking and then, three hours later, I got another for bratting. The maintenance spanking have gotten progressively harder as time has gone on. God, I love my wife!!!

Monday, May 13, 2013

The gratitude I feel.............

My gratitude to my wife for making my every dream, fantasy, and desire, come true is beyond words!!! All of my life I went around thinking, fantasizing, and craving, a relationship like the one I now have. I have the relationship of my dreams with the most beautiful woman in the universe!!!!!!!! I spent my life looking at the odds of ever finding a woman who would give me the discipline that I need.....I knew the odds were stacked against me. Lets face the facts: for every thousand guys who seek a spanking relationship there is one woman. Maybe! I think that I have joined every spanking group on the Internet, and when I browsed through the members I found it was 98% guys looking for the same thing. Finally, at age 45, I found her:My Goddess, My best friend, My wife!!!
We started this journey as me being her Dom. I am still her Dom to the world, but she is my disciplinary wife at home. I now get two, or three, maintenance spankings a week. I have so far avoided the punishment spankings that I crave, but fear with all of my heart, by being on my best behavior. The true punishment spanking is a real dichotomy for me...............on one hand I desire, and crave, the release................on the other hand it scares the shit out of me!!! I'm reading a book now, which I will soon give to my wife, where the author says "Maintenance spankings should be quite severe until the wife gets 100% experienced at severe corporal punishment." I don't know if I want my wife to read that or not. I mean what would I do if she started to really lay it on to learn her skills as a disciplinarian? This is a real dilemma.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Progress...........

My wife is giving me two maintenance spankings a week..........more if I ask for them. She is helping motivate me out of my severe depression by leaving me a list of chores, which had better be done, everyday. So far I have managed not to get the dreaded punishment spanking, but it's only a matter of time before I slip up I think.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

It changes again.............


Yesterday my wife/little girl/ Mommy (we are switches) told me, as she spanked me over her knee, that she was going to assume the dominant role in our relationship for awhile. She said that she was going to give me two maintenance spankings a week and a punishment spanking when I'd earned it. She read me a list of rules, and chores, as she spanked me..............she told me the consequences of these things not being followed.
I have always desired, craved, and daydreamed about being a well disciplined little boy/husband......and now it looks like I am on my way. I am hoping she will stick to what she says, but we have had some false starts before. I think that she is really ready this time, though. She has a lady (my step Mommy), who we met on Fetlife, to mentor her through her learning process. I could not be happier!!! I will probably be making more frequent post on my blog since it seems I will have a lot more to talk about in the ass blistering department.......lol.
When I first started down this road I was pretty sure that it would be a heartbreaking journey. I knew the chances of meeting a woman who spanks were almost nil; I knew that the odds were way out of my favor. I have been a member of every spanking site I ever found on the net, joined every spanking group I could find,   read every story, post, or letter, that had/has anything to do with spanking............but, I had very little hope of finding what I read about.......what I thought about.......what I craved!!! Then I met my wife, who is by the way the most beautiful woman on the face of the planet, and everything changed. I was 100% the Dom at the beginning of our relationship, but over time, the power has shifted. Will it stay shifted? I don't know.........one day at a time we will find out.
     Thank you for sharing my journey with me.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The spanking happened...........

Well, I got my spanking at about 11 last night.......it was a real blistering, with lots of rubbing, and multiple instruments. She could not get me to tears, but it was a good blistering nontheless. I will try to upload it onto spankingtube. I was disappointed that I did not get to tears, but from what I've read, there are not a lot of men who can actually obtain tears........I must be one of them. I still have not posted the video; I will let you know when I do. The funny thing is that the picture I posted does not show the damage to my bottom the way the video does. All I know is that here it is, two days later, and my bottom is still swollen. I did find that there were times, during the spanking, where I could remove myself from the pain for a few seconds............I could sort of block it out.

Friday, November 23, 2012

Well, the time has come.................

The time to put up or shut up; the time when the rubber meets the road........and the hairbrush blisters my ass!!! The woman that my wife and I met this summer is coming into town on business, and to spank me to tears. Am I scared? Hell yes!!! Even though this is what I have been craving, fantasizing, and wishing for my whole life, I am still scared to death.I want to get out of it in the worst way. But, if I get out of it I will always wish for it and never know. As we all know: fantasies are sometimes only that.......and they hardly ever turn out like we dreamed. On the other hand, fantasies sometimes turn out better than we possibly could have hoped for........leaving us craving, as Billy Idol says, more, more, more.
I told this woman, who is now a friend, that I want her to be my very strict step Mommy. I want her to make me feel like a bad little boy, be very verbal while she mercilessly beats my ass. I have told her that I want to be reduced to a sobbing, snot slinging little boy. Realistically I know that my mind will change on the first contact of the hairbrush to my unprotected, bare, bottom! I am going to be restrained in such a way that I will have no choice but to take it...........much like a young boy over his Mommies knee, which is how I want to feel. My wife will be in the room as I receive my blistering, which is excellent because I have always had the fantasy of getting my ass beat in front of witnesses. Am I unlucky or blessed? Only time will tell. Well, to be honest....I am blessed, although my bare bottom is not..........lol.
The spanking is to occur on Sunday 11/25/2012...............I am scared to death!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

How many men here are like me?

 The first thing you think........when you see a beautiful woman, or any woman for that matter, is "I wonder if she gives a severe spanking" or "I'd like to go over her lap?" My thoughts always run that way.............they have since I was a child. I used to lay in my bed at night and picture myself being spanked by either one of my teachers or an actress I had seen on television that night. The spankings I daydreamed about were always the kind that left me a sobbing, begging, mess. So come on....be honest: are you like me?

Friday, October 12, 2012

Anniversary!!!

I have been married to the most beautiful woman in the world for one year on Monday!!! Awesome!!!

Friday, September 21, 2012

I may have to take a break for awhile...........

My wife informed me today that she thought we should find another person to be my disciplinarian. I guess she feels that this lifestyle is affecting our Dom/sub dynamic. I am the Dom, but I thought we could work this out so it was advantageous to both of us. It turns out that it does disturb our dynamic. I will let you know what the future holds.

Okay, it has been a couple of days now.............my wife says she will still continue to give me maintenance spankings, but she thinks I would be better off if another woman gave me the serious discipline spankings.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Today my wife and I met with a wonderful lady who said she would help my wife learn how to spank me to tears. It was great to meet another person in the lifestyle. Both my wife and I instantly felt like we had made a new friend.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!

Just passed 100,000 hits on my blog!!! I really hope that you guy's continue to enjoy it!!!