The gratitude I feel.............

My gratitude to my wife for making my every dream, fantasy, and desire, come true is beyond words!!! All of my life I went around thinking, fantasizing, and craving, a relationship like the one I now have. I have the relationship of my dreams with the most beautiful woman in the universe!!!!!!!! I spent my life looking at the odds of ever finding a woman who would give me the discipline that I need.....I knew the odds were stacked against me. Lets face the facts: for every thousand guys who seek a spanking relationship there is one woman. Maybe! I think that I have joined every spanking group on the Internet, and when I browsed through the members I found it was 98% guys looking for the same thing. Finally, at age 45, I found her:My Goddess, My best friend, My wife!!!
We started this journey as me being her Dom. I am still her Dom to the world, but she is my disciplinary wife at home. I now get two, or three, maintenance spankings a week. I have so far avoided the punishment spankings that I crave, but fear with all of my heart, by being on my best behavior. The true punishment spanking is a real dichotomy for me...............on one hand I desire, and crave, the release................on the other hand it scares the shit out of me!!! I'm reading a book now, which I will soon give to my wife, where the author says "Maintenance spankings should be quite severe until the wife gets 100% experienced at severe corporal punishment." I don't know if I want my wife to read that or not. I mean what would I do if she started to really lay it on to learn her skills as a disciplinarian? This is a real dilemma.

Progress...........

My wife is giving me two maintenance spankings a week..........more if I ask for them. She is helping motivate me out of my severe depression by leaving me a list of chores, which had better be done, everyday. So far I have managed not to get the dreaded punishment spanking, but it's only a matter of time before I slip up I think.

It changes again.............

Yesterday my wife/little girl/ Mommy (we are switches) told me, as she spanked me over her knee, that she was going to assume the dominant role in our relationship for awhile. She said that she was going to give me two maintenance spankings a week and a punishment spanking when I'd earned it. She read me a list of rules, and chores, as she spanked me..............she told me the consequences of these things not being followed.
I have always desired, craved, and daydreamed about being a well disciplined little boy/husband......and now it looks like I am on my way. I am hoping she will stick to what she says, but we have had some false starts before. I think that she is really ready this time, though. She has a lady (my step Mommy), who we met on Fetlife, to mentor her through her learning process. I could not be happier!!! I will probably be making more frequent post on my blog since it seems I will have a lot more to talk about in the ass blistering department.......lol.
When I first started down this road I was pretty sure that it would be a heartbreaking journey. I knew the chances of meeting a woman who spanks were almost nil; I knew that the odds were way out of my favor. I have been a member of every spanking site I ever found on the net, joined every spanking group I could find,   read every story, post, or letter, that had/has anything to do with spanking............but, I had very little hope of finding what I read about.......what I thought about.......what I craved!!! Then I met my wife, who is by the way the most beautiful woman on the face of the planet, and everything changed. I was 100% the Dom at the beginning of our relationship, but over time, the power has shifted. Will it stay shifted? I don't know.........one day at a time we will find out.
     Thank you for sharing my journey with me.

My stepmom is coming to town again this week

I can pretty much guarantee what is going to happen to my ass.

The spanking happened...........

Well, I got my spanking at about 11 last night.......it was a real blistering, with lots of rubbing, and multiple instruments. She could not get me to tears, but it was a good blistering nontheless. I will try to upload it onto spankingtube. I was disappointed that I did not get to tears, but from what I've read, there are not a lot of men who can actually obtain tears........I must be one of them. I still have not posted the video; I will let you know when I do. The funny thing is that the picture I posted does not show the damage to my bottom the way the video does. All I know is that here it is, two days later, and my bottom is still swollen. I did find that there were times, during the spanking, where I could remove myself from the pain for a few seconds............I could sort of block it out.

Well, the time has come.................

The time to put up or shut up; the time when the rubber meets the road........and the hairbrush blisters my ass!!! The woman that my wife and I met this summer is coming into town on business, and to spank me to tears. Am I scared? Hell yes!!! Even though this is what I have been craving, fantasizing, and wishing for my whole life, I am still scared to death.I want to get out of it in the worst way. But, if I get out of it I will always wish for it and never know. As we all know: fantasies are sometimes only that.......and they hardly ever turn out like we dreamed. On the other hand, fantasies sometimes turn out better than we possibly could have hoped for........leaving us craving, as Billy Idol says, more, more, more.
I told this woman, who is now a friend, that I want her to be my very strict step Mommy. I want her to make me feel like a bad little boy, be very verbal while she mercilessly beats my ass. I have told her that I want to be reduced to a sobbing, snot slinging little boy. Realistically I know that my mind will change on the first contact of the hairbrush to my unprotected, bare, bottom! I am going to be restrained in such a way that I will have no choice but to take it...........much like a young boy over his Mommies knee, which is how I want to feel. My wife will be in the room as I receive my blistering, which is excellent because I have always had the fantasy of getting my ass beat in front of witnesses. Am I unlucky or blessed? Only time will tell. Well, to be honest....I am blessed, although my bare bottom is not..........lol.
The spanking is to occur on Sunday 11/25/2012...............I am scared to death!!!

How many men here are like me?

 The first thing you think........when you see a beautiful woman, or any woman for that matter, is "I wonder if she gives a severe spanking" or "I'd like to go over her lap?" My thoughts always run that way.............they have since I was a child. I used to lay in my bed at night and picture myself being spanked by either one of my teachers or an actress I had seen on television that night. The spankings I daydreamed about were always the kind that left me a sobbing, begging, mess. So come on....be honest: are you like me?

Anniversary!!!

I have been married to the most beautiful woman in the world for one year on Monday!!! Awesome!!!

I may have to take a break for awhile...........

My wife informed me today that she thought we should find another person to be my disciplinarian. I guess she feels that this lifestyle is affecting our Dom/sub dynamic. I am the Dom, but I thought we could work this out so it was advantageous to both of us. It turns out that it does disturb our dynamic. I will let you know what the future holds.

Okay, it has been a couple of days now.............my wife says she will still continue to give me maintenance spankings, but she thinks I would be better off if another woman gave me the serious discipline spankings.

Today my wife and I met with a wonderful lady who said she would help my wife learn how to spank me to tears. It was great to meet another person in the lifestyle. Both my wife and I instantly felt like we had made a new friend.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!

Just passed 100,000 hits on my blog!!! I really hope that you guy's continue to enjoy it!!!

Maintenance spankings........

My wife has been giving me maintenance spankings every other day since I have been off work. The spankings are not particularly severe.....just enough so that I know I have been spanked. Also, just enough so I get the release of endorphins I need to keep me from sinking too far into the depression that I am prone to. We have to really be on guard against my depression at this time because I am off of work for at least three months and the idle time makes it easy for me to slip into the mire.
My wife is the greatest woman on earth, and my Goddess!!!

A short spanking story I wrote today............

Learning to be disciplined

I stood naked in front of the seated lady who was going to teach my wife how to give a proper punishment spanking. I had been spanked before, but never to the extent of real discipline…….this was my deepest dream, but also my deepest fear. I trembled with the anticipation and fear.

The woman looked up at me and said, “Now David let me be perfectly honest here so that there is no misunderstanding. In a discipline spanking you are being punished, severely punished!!! There is no warm up, there is no break, you will be in agony from start to finish. The agony is constant and unbearable, and it goes on for a very long time. If you go over my knee, agony will be your only reward…..and, hopefully, tears. You have expressed the desire to be a disciplined husband; you have expressed the dream to have a very strict wife. If you choose to willingly go over my knee today your life will change forever. Your relationship will change forever. This will be only one of the many more, severely painful, spankings you will receive over the course of you marriage. I have recommended that your wife, and soul mate, blister your ass in the way I’m about to demonstrate, twice a week for the first year.  You will spend many days standing, or kneeling, in the corner with a face covered in tears and snot. Your wife may spank you like this whenever you have broken an agreed upon rule, whenever you have gotten too big for your britches, or whenever she sees fit!!! Make your choice now,  just remember that from here on out it will be a long and painful ride…….but, it is a ride in which you will know a feeling of being loved and cared for that you have never known. Choose!!!

Fear gripped me as I laid myself over her lap and took the step I had always dreamed of………………..

I will keep you informed as our new dynamic emerges.

This is very scary; I view this with excitement and trepidation. I am watching my wife interact, on various sites, with women who already practice this lifestyle with their husbands. I watch as my wife is learning what it takes to properly discipline a bad little boy/Husband. We are planning on meeting one couple where the wife has said she will show, on my bottom, how to give a proper discipline spanking.........I can't wait!!! Oh wait, I mean I am scared to death, because I really am.
I, like many of you, have spent countless hours reading what seemed to be outrageous, fantasy laden, posts about men getting their asses beat. I wondered if such a lifestyle wasn't just a fantasy.
 I searched in vain for such a woman to live that lifestyle with. Gentlemen I have found that woman!!! Not only did God grace me with a woman who would spank me, he graced me with my soulmate: a woman who is a Goddess in my eyes in everyway!!!!!!!!!!!

7/22/2012: My awesome wife just gave me a maintenance spanking............all I have to say is I am a total wimp!!! I hope I never earn a real punishment spanking because I will die!!!......lol. Of course, as all spanked husbands know, eventually I will receive one. Spanked husbands have also assured me that I will not die. I may wish I was dead............rofl.

On our way...............

I have asked my wife to spank me more, and also to give me my first punishment spanking soon, whether I need it or not. Don't get me wrong, I am not looking forward with great joy to my first punishment spanking, however I know I need, crave, and want it with all of my heart and soul. I am off of work for awhile, and she has the summer off, so we can get more of a chance to shape this into whatever we want to make it. I would love to make it where I am a frequently spanked, well disciplined husband. I would love to be made to bawl like a baby, over her knee, by the end of the summer!!! In the end it is all up to her..........the way it should be!!!

My wife has started giving me two maintenance spankings a week. The spankings are not particularly harsh, although I will admit they hurt. They are just enough to remind me who the Mommy is.

How do you feel about this saying?

"A "REAL SPANKING" only truly begins, well after the recipient is desperate for it to end..."

   Do you agree, or disagree, with the premise behind it?              

Hernia surgery.............

I just had it yesterday. I am so swollen and multicolored it is ridiculous! Has anybody had experience with this kind of surgery?

I finally have a date to go back to work: next Wednesday. All in all it will have been three weeks. At least the weather has been awesome everyday, even though I've only been able to sit outside and read.

4/28/2012 I got spanked today. I broke one of our rules last night, I made fun of her in front of people. When we were in the car she told me I was going to get spanked when we got home. I managed to talk my way out of it, but as I thought about it today I came to the conclusion that I should not be able to talk my way out of it. I sent her a text when she was out that stated that I felt kind of let down because I was able to talk her out of blistering my ass. I told her that when she stated that I needed discipline she should be strict and unmoving. I said that I felt she should always follow up on her threat to spank!
   She read my texts and when she got home today she made me very sorry that I had sent them. Very sorry! She then stated that she was going to start giving me maintenance spankings twice a week from now on, on top of any discipline spankings that I may earn. I will keep you informed.

I asked my wife to spank me a lot this weekend.

4/20/2012: She obliged me by starting right when I got home from work: quite a barn burner. I had a swollen ass when she was done. Maybe I better re-think what I asked for?.....................NAH!!!

4/22/2012: Well, the weekend is over and I only got one spanking........... ;-(  As so often happens we get busy with our lives and forget, which sucks, but it is what it is.

Now Banjo is gone!!!

Banjo's blog is no more...............I guess mine is not longed for this world, either!!! Hail almighty censorship!!! Zeig Heil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A clarification.................

Although, there are several pictures of young boys getting their bottom blistered on my site, I do not condone child abuse. The pictures represent how I would love to feel again: bottom bared, over a knee, helpless, crying, begging, but knowing I deserved it. I would love to be so helpless that I could do nothing but take the spanking my wife chose to deal out; I would love to feel like a naughty twelve year old boy over Mommies knee. I would love to be able to sob my heart out as Mommy blistered me raw.

Sorry about the lack of posts........................

I am being yanked around by my job. My bosses pulled me into the office on Friday and told me that, in the near future, I would no longer be supervisor............they had no plan about when this would happen. I was devastated! So, everyday this week I have done my regular job and one of the bosses told me he really didn't think my job would be all that different. WHAT THE FUCK!!! These people are really running the company??? They have no concrete plan so they figure they should kick me in the balls really hard and see where it goes. The president of the company actually said to me in the meeting "we probably left you in the positition a few years too long...shame on us." Pretty much what that translates to is "you really sucked at your job but we let you do it anyway!" Today I told my boss that I needed to know what my new job was as soon as possible so that I could start figuring out what I needed to do about working there. I told him I had been there twenty seven years and I deserved a little better than this.

One of my favorite spanking blogs is gone!!!

I just tried to go onto Ma'am yes Ma'am spanking blog and was devastated to find it had disappeared!!! It was on of the best Female/Male spanking blogs on the net!!! Lots of good advice, and sharing, was lost. This sucks!!!

This is the first day that I haven't been spanked in a week...............

I miss it............. :-( ...............it made me really happy, and mellow, when she was done. I think I miss them bacause they weren't true punishment spankings.............don't get me wrong: they hurt like a bitch, but I do not think they were the unbearable kind that a true punishment spanking is. Even though I miss the spankings I know that I have to take a break so that I don't get "leather butt." Plus I want the spankings to be effective when she does give them to me to correct my behavior.